Day 2

Life After the Beginning

Yesterday was day 1, obviously as today is day 2!   I started the same as I start any day, with a black coffee, wheatabix and a splash of milk and I did say that I wanted to be more organised.  This seems to be where I let myself down.  I don't say "No, I'm sorry but I won't be able to help you"...I think it and then say "Yes, that's no problem, it'll be ready in a couple of days".  I then find that I have over 28 jobs that need to be 'ready in a couple of days'.

I think that if I can overcome this affliction of always trying to please everyone and actually start to give myself a break, I may just find the rest of life easier to deal with. 

Had a major barney will my husband yesterday and it was all down to too much to do in not enough time, not eating lunch (not enough time) and then having a hissy fit at my nearest and dearest.

I own a small shop in the centre of a village, in the centre of the county, roughly in central England.  It has been open for 2 months now and it has been a dream of mine for a number of years.  However, I never for a minute thought it would take off as well as it has.  People are coming from all over, to have their alterations and sewing jobs done by me...and I don't want to disappoint anyone.  This is leaving me with no social time, no breaks and I have found myself to be sewing with the dawn chorus, which in turn leaves my body clock going haywire and because I get carried away with the sewing, I forget to eat until I go dizzy and crotchety and usually end up arguing with my loved ones or stuffing my face till I feel sick...neither pretty sights.

So instead of today being Day 2, I am going to consider it and everyday as the first day (because I am very good on Day 1 but then try and cheat and kid myself the rest of the time...maybe it will work, maybe it won't?  I'll let you know).

Here we go...

I will be more organised!!!

First morning of my challenge and it's a trip to the shop for food at 7am.  As we got back late from our Cornish weekend yesterday (due to a blow out on the motorway), we had no basics...

Breakfast

• 2 x wheatabix
• Semi skimmed milk (very little as I loathe the stuff)
• a sprinkle of sweetener
• 1 x black coffee

Eve of the beginning

I have made the decision to make a blog of my journey to losing 56lbs. 

I currently weigh in at a whopping 14 stone (196lbs) and have just spent a long weekend on the beautiful Cornish coast which would like to return to next year and feel more confident to try out some serious surfing.

I would like to feel less irritable, more energised and no longer waking up each day kidding myself that 'I don't look that bad'.  So, with my new business now established, I will be blogging on how I deal with the stresses and strains of every day life and what I use instead of food to deal with it all.  Whether I'm happy, sad, angry, anxious, I eat...anything...except veg, fruit and healthy choices.  I will let you know when I succumb, beat or just get along with my 30 years of fighting the flab.  No more excuses, no more chances,  and as I've only got 6 months till my last birthday in my 30's...I would like to be around a lot longer, a lot healthier and a lot happier.

See you tomorrow for day 1.